Dear mom, Happy New Year

Mom, its been one year since you left. I got married to the guy you last met. The one you said was a keeper, remember? Surprisingly, time still passes. Even when I thought the world would fall apart. I’ve learned to grieve in my own way, and though I still can’t believe that you’re not here- I have come to accept the fact that you’re not here. Now that I am married, I feel much closer to you at heart. You were just my age when you had me- big dreams, a career as an actress, and so much to take care of. I now understand that being a mom at that age must not have been easy. It would have been pretty hard, and I just now understand that. But you lived as an honest person, and taught me how to live- by showing me yourself. And for me, that was enough.

Mom, thanks for teaching me to be such a strong person. Even when things go bad, I never stay down.

Thanks for showing me how to love myself, and love others too. I grew to be a person who knows her own worth.

Thanks for giving me the chance to learn the skills that I now live on. The opportunities I had when I was young still earn me a living to this day.

Thanks for telling me and all the other people in your life how special I was. People respect me, and that started from you.

There are so many things that we didn’t get right in this life- but I also know that no one ever does. But given the chance, I would love to be your daughter again- in another life, another time. I won’t regret our relationship- because I know that its just too little to late. Instead, I’m going to focus on the good things, and live on with you in my heart. I hope you’ll keep an eye on the person I’m yet to become.

With love, your daughter.