I just want to be happy

Question, Do women just stay in work until they get pregnant? Does it depend on the household? Should I get a new job now?

Okay. Wow. When I told people that I’d never get married or would never have kids… Let’s just say people were not wrong when they told me “just wait til I grow up.”

When mom passed, I wanted someone else that loved me like that- someone that (no offense) but would stick around for longer and possibly share the better things in life with. Now, I’m married with a dog and three cats with this great guy… planning for kids!

The funny story is, I always thought I wanted to be a really cool boss lady, or a stay at home mom. I never really imagined having both at the same time. Maybe this was just the reality that I grew up with.

Now that we have been planning to get pregnant (getting tests and shots and all that stuff) I told my husband that my teaching job was too tiring and that I want to spend the rest of my baby-free days visiting my besties in the US and all. After pregnancy? I’m doubtful that companies will hire.

But to be honest, I just can’t imagine myself being the super mom who does chores around the house, holds a nice full-time job, and has time to be emotionally supportive to her family. No one has reprimanded me for choosing to let go of my current job to prepare for kids. (It’s only been two weeks though) My husband is incredibly supportive about it, although I don’t think he fully understands why I’m choosing to take this time off for myself before things get real.

I’m just hoping that we’re lucky enough to have the kids right away and raise them til they’re old enough to go to school? Maybe then I’ll be able to work without the stress of having to be a “super-mom.”

Anyway, every time I hop back in here, there is just so much change in my life. Hopefully, things work out well, we’ll see what the next step of my life will be I guess.

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