I feel drained. My energy is low.
Yesterday, I was talking to my partner about how surprising it is that I am going through everyday tasks,
possibly even more tasks- with the inheritance issues and everything–
despite all the pain I am in.
But even though I try to express my feelings and be open about the state I am in,
It’s not easy for me to let it all out.
I cry often when I am alone. Mostly in the car, or writing on this blog
I think it’s the effect of being alone with my thoughts.
Right now, its really hard for me to keep going through things in my head, yet I can’t really seem to stop them.
With so many thing going on- time doesn’t stop for anyone.
I have a whole list of things that need to be done until the end of next December,
none of which can be compromised-
And I feel like the weight is mostly on me.
Even after so much planning, things not going the way I planned them
really messes with my head.
Finances, time, career, legal issues- none of which I can prioritize at the moment.
What do I do in times like these?
What do I do when I am overwhelmed at everything, but no one sees?